|
|
|
In the silence of this journal I feel free to say I want to die, and I hate my life without worries of causingany problems, or having people point the finger at me and claim my thoughts are false... Since no one reads, no one knows"
I hate my life.
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Wednesday, March 31st, 2004
|
|
|
my name is ------
I can see the light
the end of world today
day by day
dusk to dawn
the light won't shade
Blur, dancing in street
I can see the signal
someone was wrong
I can feel the sin
black, blue, red and white
I can see, a false fantasy
drifting with all my nights
The sound of the stars
I can hear as they call
The endless love of the life
and I am already gone
As we fall further and futher away
leting go of what you believe
so don't you try to tell me
what everything was all bout
because we scream the sound
the love of what we found
I've already call it quit
when I realize, there was
nothing left for me
we fall from our grace
we forget that this is our place
|
(Lost with out you)
|
|
I can't do this any longer...
that is what today has shown me.
I look back over everything...
I just want it to end at any cost
I just want my time to be over.
|
(2 Answers | Lost with out you)
|
Sunday, February 29th, 2004
|
|
Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
|
|
|
I am the one the only one
the one that understand my will
I am the one the only one
the one that holds on to,
even after so much still
I am the one the only one
I FEEL
THE DREAM
THE DAY
SLIPPING AWAY
I FEEL
I FEEL
THE DAY
THE DAY
THE DREAM
THE DREAM
SLIPPING AWAY
FROM ME
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
|
|
|
Erase the point, so that I could be broken
finding my faith in nothing
nothing but you
Falling through the hollow
You will find my devil's will
dieing, trying not to hurt you
but I have no blessing
because eyes see lies to be true
fade away with me into nothing
spoken to be broken
because tommorrow is a whore
try to forget the forgotten
because I am nothing like you
I think I am losing my mind...
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Friday, February 13th, 2004
|
|
Thursday, February 12th, 2004
|
|
|
I have decided to deleted all the rest of my journals.. Those memeories are in the past.... I still have to go through and sort out my work that I had posted in them, and save the files either here or to the glynndesmond journal... I have change, and I understand that.. Much of who I was, and what I was, is now gone, and is something I never want back... And since all that is in the past, then I realize I was not who I am now..
I am cold at heart, at that is fitting for me.
I let the darkness take control and
in a sense, I could say Mike is dead, and this is who took his place..
different way of speaking bout this.
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
|
|
|
I am god's broken hand...
All I want is a reason for my lack of control.
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
|
|
|
still rigth here
the one everyone throws away
the one you laugh at
the one you use
the one you blame
the one you over look?
the one you reject
the one you hate
the one you fear
the one that is nothing?
the one that is worthless
the one.
wait and see.........
still right here waiting, as everything change..
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Saturday, February 7th, 2004
|
|
Sunday, November 9th, 2003
|
|
|
follow me into the sun
I am dieing
with you in my arms
i'll kill everyone
just for a little bit more"~Mike Glynn Ellis
the answer will not come if the problem is still at mind and hand.... ever after victory... You will become your own worse enemy, before you defeat what you set out to stop in the first place...
Experience is god's golden hand, memories are the devil's black magic.. Learn to control them.
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Wednesday, October 8th, 2003
|
|
|
I fail to find the pain in which what sorrow you fear...
Didn't you think could
didn't you think you were the best
didn't you try to be wrong
didn't you turn your back
didn't you sell your soul
didn't you throw me away
don't you tell me different
don't you throw me away
don't you sell your soul
don't you want it all
don't you want a taste
don't you try me
don't you ruin me
fuck you
fuck you beacuse of you
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Sunday, September 28th, 2003
|
|
|
I hold myself back, to show that I mean what I say... I stand by there sides despite if I agree or not
I try my best to do what is right, and become the hated.
I am left alone in the end
I have been lie to
I have used
I have been torn apart
And the only thing that good for me
no matter what I try to do
no matter what it is I don't feel I need to do
no matter what my dreams might be
I have to be alone, just to be able to move away from all of this...
I am going to have to lose all my friends, all the peole I talk to in time... I got to get away from all of this though...
my eyes, stuck to pay the price for the favor I owe you
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Saturday, August 30th, 2003
|
|
|
Dream and yet, the answer are no where, but all the fears always come true...
But after all is said and done, I just want to ruin your life
|
(Lost with out you)
|
Saturday, February 8th, 2003
|
|
Saturday, January 4th, 2003
|
|
|
The angel crys,
And i am finding it harder to believe
that there anyone waiting out there.
|
(Lost with out you)
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
sweetbang's journal